Friday, September 18, 2009

Working It Through

It's been about two months since I last wrote in this thing and probably with good reason. I've not had a lot to say that is honest, committed to truth. I could start it off with saying how incredibly full my schedule has been. I'm involved with much and therefore don't have a ton of time to give to spiritual conversation. Or I can say that school just started up again and it's been really difficult readjusting to academic life. I could give a list of reasons. However, I'd prefer to stick with what's true. Because if I'm learning anything, it's that this relationship with God that we seek, if we seek it, is a constant part of our living and breathing. It's not something to "work in", it's the reason we even have the day to work with. So here's honest, no Christianese and I hope it blesses you.

Recently, I've been rebellious to listen to the Lord, to be in His presence, to even attempt to seek Him. And it's pretty ridiculous because my life is absolutely blessed. I was reminded of this today when I read through an update of a family that is hurting right now. They are going through processing the devastating knowledge that they're going to lose their little baby. And their response? "We are blessed..."

There are times that I wake up and realize the extreme amount of "me" and my life that swims through my thoughts. I get so consumed with what's going on in my life, a career choice, a romance potential, a friendship, that I forget the very reason I even have any of those blessings...is HIm. And it's not as if I don't already know Him. I've tasted joy in His presence. There is such clarity and rest found in His will. But time gets busy, I get overwhelmed, or whatever the excuse may be. You see, the truth is that the purpose or reason for any good thing done on this earth is to bring the Creator glory. And when we actively participate in that truth, we receive joy. It's pretty unreal.

I was talking today with a colleague about how systems are perfect and wonderful, until you put people in them. Communism, government, business, the institution of the Church. All examples of imperfect and failing systems. But when does the Church fail least? When do we actually declare God's love and saving mercy found in Christ? I find that it is when we answer Christ's call to get outside ourselves and serve Him and others in thought, word, and deed. When's its less about the grandeur of people's involvement and more about a commitment to excellence in loving, serving, forgiving, extending grace.

So this is me reprimanding myself (don't you love that?). I'm not perfect. I don't claim that ever. I'm not even good on my own. BUT I have access to goodness and life in this God who is good and is Life. This apathetic cycle of ignoring God's voice, not seeking His will, gets old after a while. We start complaining about nothing. It's ugly and heavy. That is not life we've been brought into in our King. We have been brought into such a heart beat that we have the mind to see the widowed and orphaned, the rejected and abused, we hear people asking for deliverance.

I recently wrote a song with those words, and then realized that I forgot something in that song. We (humans) are not the brighter way, but rather those that bring news and reflect the light of The Brightest Way. We, in and of ourselves, aren't purpose, but we bring news of the One who is...and not only that, but He is identity and stability and salvation. We have the power of a voice, a mind, a heart, and action-oriented plans. When wed with the life of Christ, it is then that we begin to solve problems and offer true freedom. And we bring that deliverance...not of ourselves, but the gift of God in the form of education, water filtration systems, microfinance, AIDS relief programs, poverty awareness, and most importantly prayer. Deliverance is found in Christ alone- a simple answer manifested in various ways for a complex and complicated world.

It's easy to get overwhelmed by the issues...how will we ever solve them all? I heard this amazing quote today that I think conveys the answer to that. "Don't tell God how big your storm is. Tell the storm how big your God is." And that telling is in the form of committed and passionate service. We serve a mighty and victorious God- One who is mighty to save.

Here's what I'd like to end with...a victory song from Hillsong:

I see the king of glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes
The whole earth shakes

I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing

Hosanna, Hosanna, Hosanna in the highest!

I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith

I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees
We're on our knees

Hosanna, Hosanna, Hosanna in the highest!

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to
Eternity

Hosanna, Hosanna, Hosanna in the highest!

I think this one was a long time coming...He is purpose. For this, we sing.

2 comments:

Melissa said...

You are such a blessing to me : )

Abby said...

do you have Christy Nockels' new cd? :) I love her cover of that song and the whole cd is fantastic. I also loved hearing you sing in church this morning! you are a blessing :)