"And I will be to her a wall of fire all around, declares the Lord, and I will be the glory in her midst." ~ Zechariah 2:5
I tried to find a picture that illustrated a wall of fire, but all of them fell short of this image ingrained in my mind. As I read that last night after quite a day, I received some comfort and even deeper humility thinking about how the Lord illustrated his protection of Jerusalem.
Because I'm a girl, I love it when the Bible uses the pronoun "her". Even though I know it was referring to a city at the time, when I memorize it, I actually picture the Father surrounding me with this protective wall. I talked to my mom a bit today about it, and she pointed out that not only is the Lord protecting, but fire refines. And that is probably the perfect way to describe all the happenings in my life right now. He is protecting me, but man, is He refining me too!
The next part of that verse also brings a smile to my face. The Lord is going to be the glory in my midst. One of my biggest struggles, I would say, is pride. It's super subtle, but at times, I find myself excited about what I can be doing or what my plans can be. But that's not what I want, really. I have experienced the utter chaos that accompanies claiming ownership/pride in something that does not and will not ever belong to you. It's quite humiliating. I know that the Lord is my glory, and I've asked Him to take that place in my life. And He will do it. So in everything I do, it must come back to my King-the way He loves, the way He serves, and most importantly as of late, the way He leads.
I'm in this place of drawing nearer to the Lord-spending time with him daily, and seeking him in the plans I piece together. It's not about me, but this time is about us-my relationship with Him. He's granted me this summer to be in close fellowship with Him as a training for the days to come when quiet is not so available.
I'm back home this summer with an incredible opportunity to work with some amazing high school kids, college kids and "young professionals". It's a beautiful time for the Lord to work in and through me. I'd like to ask you to pray with and for me as I continue in my time here. That it would be nothing short of a blessing.
I am being refined. And I am protected by a mighty God.