1 Peter 5:6-11~"Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. To him be the dominion forever and ever. Amen."
I love that verse. I look at it and we typically hear verse 7 which talks about us casting our anxieties on Him because He cares. But look at the surrounding verses for a second. Peter talks about humbling ourselves, suffering, and the strength of God which is manifest in His restoration, confirmation, strengthening and establishment of us. We suffer, are humbled for His glory. What I think I forget sometimes is the very fact that I will actually suffer in this. Its not going to be wonderfully happy all of the time. And doesn't it take a grace to submit myself to His plan? Man. Another cool part about this verse-we're not suffering alone. No, my brotherhood/sisterhood throughout the world is suffering too. So we can call on one another for prayer.
So I was sitting in my sociology class today writing out a prayer due to my heart condition. As my dear friend said, "Doesn't it suck to be human sometimes?" Haha. Yes, it absolutely can suck. In fact the pain can be numbing and disabling, but there is a promise of restoration and strength found in Christ. So I can feel these things, but in them cry out "Be thou my vision, Lord of my heart-naught be all else to me save that THOU art." I must ask Him to be glorified in the pain as I struggle to understand the whys and hows-and know that some how in the chaos of my mind, He makes me strong, brings me peace and will provide for me.
I guess I just wanted to offer my hand to you all-suffering through uncertainty, heartache, heart break, chaotic thoughts and instability. He will restore you. I don't want to be one that the enemy devours...and I won't let you be either. Jesus is holy and has saved us. "Jesus loves you." Let that sink in for a few. There will be suffering, but praise Him that there is so much more to it than just feeling horrible. Receive the pain, but also receive His truth. He will never leave nor forsake you! Do you have the grace to let go and let Him move? I envision myself taking this mess and just pushing it heavenward. Take it, Jesus! I offer it to you! Make it holy and acceptable!
I cry out to you in the midst of this crazy attempt of the enemy to bring me down. I know you are my provider-in the big and the small. I've seen your works in my life-so intricate and precise. Allow me to rest between your shoulders today. Give me the strength to know that you walk by me each day, guiding my steps. I have submitted myself to your will for me. I do it again now. May I be a servant to my brotherhood and not get consumed with the issues of this life. You are King. I know you are faithful. You fulfilled your promise of a Savior, and you continue to fulfill your promises today. All my life is yours, Jesus. Give me the grace to let go.
Con toda la corazon mia,
Your daughter, beloved and servant,