Wednesday, October 04, 2006

My Life is Filled with Pink Impatients

Jeremiah 29:11-"For I know the plans I have for you..."

I was walking on the way to meet my friend the other day. For some reason, I really needed prayer, so my mind was kind of set in that. As I began to walk up the stairs, I noticed to my left a patch of impatients. The landscaper clearly desired for the patch to be precisely red and white. After all, the colors of our school are cream and crimson (to those of us who are not detail-crazed in this regard: white/red). But in the middle of the red/white division were these two pink impatients. A smile popped on my face almost instantaneously. How often do we try to create a certain situation and God throws in a the "pink impatients"? They are unexpected, unplanned and believe it or not, at times unwanted. But its amazing to me. When I was walking, I was kind of struggling with worrying about the future...things not working out the "way I was planning them". And then I looked to the side and saw those flowers. Had things gone as planned, I would not have had this train of thought.

So what's the point? God knows the plans and uses his surprises for the beauty and benefit of others. Its hard sometimes because the "surprises" tend not to look quite right in our lives, they could be uncomfortable and extremely challenging.

For those who know me well, they know that I am a planner. Yes, I'm guilty of the "has to write things down" syndrome and I tend to get anxious when dates/times/details are not solid. But recently, due to a newly learned attitude of patience and gentleness, my life has become a bit more focused on what God is doing in the NOW as opposed to the future even amidst the challenging stuff.

But here's my thinking...God's held the universe in His hands for all of time. He's been faithful to fulfill His promises throughout all of time. There are countless stories and situations in MY life in which God has revealed His faithfulness. So why question the alternate floral arrangement? Christ reminds us not to worry about the days to be like the birds of the air, soaring in His full glory. So how do we practically go about "not worrying"? Well, the only way I have seen it ever work is through knowing scripture, using it to counter thoughts that evoke worry, and proclaiming His name.

It is so difficult to get past ourselves, isn't it? But like I said, He is faithful and true. He is the very definition of love found in 1 Corinthians 13:4-7. Patient and kind..never failing. If only we took the time to remember what He's done...where He's brought us and what He's doing. Maybe then we would see the beauty of the unexpected.

If you're like me, a planner, a detail person, stressed :), then take rest in this...God IS. Psalm 46 reminds us to "Be still and know that I am God". So let's rest...stop and smell the pink impatients.

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