Hebrews 6:4-5-"It is impossible for those who have once been enlightened, who have tasted the heavenly gift, who have shared in the Holy Spirit, who have tasted the goodness of the word of God and the powers of the coming age, if they fall away, to be brought back to repentance, because to their loss they are crucifying the Son of God all over again, subjecting Him to public disgrace."
I guess there is no real "nice" way to talk about this. I kind of hate the fact that I feel compelled to do so. But frankly, it is time we start taking life seriously. And I don't mean in the "tightly wound, stick up the rear" serious. No, I mean the type of serious that portrays who we are as we live and breathe. I do not think...as Christians...we can make decisions only thinking of the "here and now". Sure there are impromptu trips, dates, purchases...that's not to what I am referring. I mean the acts that are sin...in which we convince ourselves of their appropriateness or rightness by saying "I'm just going to do it." I don't think even I understand this next sentence to its fullest. We are incapable of justifying ourselves by that statement. We cannot say "it was just an in-the-moment thing."
Why not? Because as Christians...we live our lives in light of the future. Yes, on one hand dying and being with Him...as the ultimate future, but moreso...what about the people that see me? Are they seeing Christ? Rarely do we commit sin completely secluded from the remainder of the world. We get drunk...typically we're with people, we have sex or engage in sexual activity outside of the marriage bed...well, that's self explanatory, we masturbate...our thoughts defile another person. Furthermore...in the act of sin...He's ever-watching. Funny how that doesn't phase us.
There's this song I heard a lot when I was younger...
"Do you still feel the nails every time I fail?
Do you hear the crowd cry 'CRUCIFY!' again?
Am I causing you pain, because then I know I've got to change
Because I just can't bear the thought of hurting you."
There is no justification for our sin...we know the future implications of what we do. Satan conveniently seduces us to think otherwise. We know what is wrong. There is no excuse.
Let's break it down even further. Why do we sin? Its not so much a question of why are we capable, but why do we do it once we've experienced and tasted His mercy? Because we don't trust Him. We believe the lies that say we need to feel Him in order for it to be enough. Funny how we doubt that the very God who spoke this world into being, who parted the sea (think on that for moment...think about Him parting the ocean), who is big enough to handle the magnitude of my unfaithfulness and adulterous heart. We doubt Him...and we only doubt Him when things are hard. We are a fickle people.
I don't mean this to be a rant...but rather an echo of my own heart. Enough, people of the cross. You saw the power and victory over sin, you've seen how His grace has saved the lives of the perishing...You've experienced the touch of the Holy Spirit at some point. Let's get over ourselves, our excuses, and our reasons...and not only claim His name...but bear it. And in a moment of temptation...take the moment to pray..."Lord be glorified." Finding shelter in the shadow of the cross. That is what it means to be His. Ever clinging to His mercy, recognizing your sin, and living a new life empowered by the same God who's voice calms the sea.