Sunday, February 12, 2006

Overrated Empty Games


Proverbs 31:30-"Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised."

I realized something tonight. I am so over the college life. What does that mean? Well, not that this lifestyle ever really appealed to me, but the beer pong, smoking, empty college life is just an overrated empty game. I know from experience that this life is dripping in charm. It comes complete with beautiful looking people. And some times...it seems like it will fix the hurt. Though it may numb the pain for a while, the deep stuff does not go away. So that's why I didn't even bother going back. Not only was there no need, but it would have done no good. Dripping with deception, complete with cowardice...yeah, I'm over it. The interesting part is that I was never really "into it", but I dabbled. I really want to die to this part of myself. I want to rest with a purity of heart that only comes from above. So I turn to Him.

So why the picture? Because...I love that girl. Its a selfish post, really. Perhaps an effort to remind myself of the person I am in the depths of my heart. She's great. She's confident, humble, passionate, funny, ambitious, and willing to let the Lord rule her life. I love who God is making me. Right now may be a bit of a lonely time in that I find comfort only in Him...but isn't that how it is supposed to be? I've missed reading my Bible these past 2 days...and I can feel it. A nice place to be...feeling a distance with God...being that sensitive to it.

We don't have to be perfect...no, but we are required, as His children, to pursue Him. This is not out of legalism, but for our benefit. The closer we are with Him, the deeper the joy we receive. Surprised?

I'll be posting my Bible study on Ruth soon. We finish this week! Crazy. I thought I would put it up here for the benefit of those who are 1) in it and 2) want to know a bit more about how applicable this story is to this society. Thus portraying the eternal nature of God's word.

I apologize for the disjointed thoughts, but it is 2:30 in the morning. I am going to church in the morning. The last thing I need is a "day off" from Him. I am so over it.

Dad and Mom...I miss you.

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